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With bipolar depression, there’s a sooper sucky quality to suicidal thoughts. The harder I try to quiet the suicidal thoughts the more pronounced the suicidal thoughts become. The reason is easy. Because I’m actively thinking “Shut up, suicidal thoughts” I now have the original suicidal thoughts plus additional thoughts of thinking about suicidal thoughts. It’s doubling down on the suicidal thoughts creating an amplifying Suicidal Thoughts Feedback Loop. Sooper sucky.

Edit: You guys rock. I’m doing good. This is a pondering, an insight, maybe a micro-epiphany.

I know folks post really personal stuff to fb. I tend to stay clear of that with the exception of when my really personal stuff helps further my advocacy ideals and goals.

Thank you for caring. I’ll post a disclaimer in similar future posts.